It’s been a very eventful few weeks, that’s for sure!
But I’m in a better place than I have been, with a renewed sense of determination and purpose, and it’s FRIDAY so it’s all good.
The ‘Bra Straps’ project came to a halt two weeks ago when we went our separate ways. I’m not prepared to slag my ex-business partner off here, but in all honesty I rushed in too quickly, beguiled by a strong personality and a bit of flattery, and the promise of a 50/50 partnership in an idea I really thought could work.
In reality I found out that I was dangerously close to letting myself get steamrollered in a direction that made me feel uncomfortable, My vision for Bra Straps was totally different when I approached her at the start – but in my efforts to try and keep her happy I changed direction a bit and I started feeling more and more uncomfortable with what we were doing.
Yeah, I’m all for positivity, self improvement and the Law of Attraction. I love me a bit of The Secret and Reiki/EFT – but I wanted to give women practical ideas and support, not empty promises and ideas they couldn’t put into practice. I can tell you to love yourself until the sun comes down but if you really DON’T then the words are empty without a way of learning HOW, and giving you some support while you do it,
When I tried to put the brakes on the legal side of things until we’d established what we were actually going to be able to offer people, and how we were going to help anyone, it didn’t go down very well, and within a week, I was going it alone. I was OK about it at first, it meant I could go back to my original idea, even if I’d agreed to drop the Bra Straps part of the name. I hadn’t bargained on the financial repercussions of asking my accountant for advice on the partnership, the still unpaid for website or the fact I’d have to rewrite practically EVERYTHING I’d done.
I’d been wrestling with the fact I promised my Dad I’d sort my health out, and the combination of this and the fact that before we went our separate ways, I was being led down the road of potentially getting seen in the media, photo shoots and being a public figure meant I also found myself at Weight Watchers for the first time in almost 15 years! It lasted a week. I lost two pounds, went home and binged for two days and realised “If you always do what you’ve always done, you’ll always get what you’ve always got”
I wasn’t sure how to deal with everything so I parked it for a while and focussed on building up the community of fantastic women on the free page for Pick Yourself Up, and deciding on the way forward for the business. In all honesty, I’m going to have to get a full time job to pay for it all. BUT I’m still working on it and loving it. Instead of focussing just on one person’s experiences, and metaphysical ideas that not everyone can connect with, Pick Yourself Up is going to be about community, support and inspiration. I’m mixing positivity with practicality, writing ebooks and worksheets, setting up webinars (all in good time) and opening up a paid membership site to anyone who has something they want to share and promote. ANYTHING.
So if you are a business owner, you will be able to join for a small fee, and then promote what you do, on the understanding you also get involved and help other people. The same applies to anyone with a charity or interest they want to share, a fundraising project, a book….anything.
It’s open to people who just want to be part of a fun, upbeat and positive community of women, too. You don’t have to have anything to promote. I want it to be somewhere people can go for help, if they feel low, need a bit of a confidence boost or just advice.
I have ALWAYS wanted to be able to make a difference, to help people. This is how I’m going to do it. Why am I charging? Because websites are expensive, I have to pay for images, SEO, MailChimp and everything else, and it takes time to write ebooks. That’s all
As I was working on it this week, I decided to offer something I wrote ages ago to members as a freebie – my 35 Things to do before you go on a diet e-book. Of course, I re-read it. I read about the Chill Pod, Fitness Pod and more and remembered – they bloody work, Why the hell had I stopped using them? Pods are from ‘Thinking Slimmer‘ and are MP3′s you can listen to anywhere, dealing with boosting your confidence levels, inspiring you to enjoy fitness, relaxation, and helping you make choices effortlessly that put you back in control of your eating. They worked for me before and I stopped them because I couldn’t be arsed to listen to them.
They are all about 10 minutes long. Really?
Guess what I’m doing now?
Yep. Back listening to them again. I’m worth it, right?
It’s been a roller coaster. Isn’t my life ALWAYS? But I’m still sorting it all out. I’m still determined to get healthy for my Dad, who’s still with us. I promised, and I stick to my promises. I just might take a bit longer but weirdly after a couple of listens I REALLY want to get to the gym and I feel like looking after myself again.
So, you can pick me up, drop me on my head, even point and stare at me while I’m down there. But I don’t stay down for long! Have a fab weekend, lovelies. And if you fancy joining the page, here’s the link: Pick Yourself Up